Odd Subjects of Research

There are a few things that I’ve been curious about as of late. Things I’ve seen on television, random topics I’ve come across or things that friends have told me about that I felt the need to look into.

The Salton Sea


This is California’s largest lake which also has a long and bizarre history. Partially natural and partially man-made, the “lake” is a shallow, saline, endorheic rift lake located directly on the San Andreas Fault, predominantly in California’s Imperial and Coachella Valleys. It boasts a history of being fertile farm land, a vibrant beach front getaway and, later, a salty marine wasteland.

The Annunaki

Yes, thank you Giorgio Tsoukalos. Your hilarious Ancient Aliens television show never ceases to entertain me. With tons of references to the pseudoscientific Mesopotamian deities in his show, the show infers that the Annunaki are somehow the creators and caretakers of humanity. Funny how it’s neglected that they are also commonly revered as Reptilian overlords… which gets you into all kinds of even more wacky conspiracy theorists than Giorgio Tsoukalos. Yes, David Icke, I’m talking about you and your psychotropic, stoner ass.

Russian Mafia

Ok, so blame David Cronenberg, Viggo Mortensen and Naomi Watts. This is a fascinating and brutally harsh movie giving a serious insight into a world many of us can fathom. You thought that the American mafia of the 50s, 60s and 70s were tough… the even more secretive Russian mafioso makes Al Capone and crew look like a bunch of giant pussies. Go ahead and watch Taken while you’re at it to guarantee that you will never let a young, female family member ever travel by themselves anywhere ever again.


It’s been a week since I last exchanged messages with her; a month since I last heard her voice. And, even now, I imagine everything we’ve ever exchanged and see her in every image that I view. She stole my heart years ago and it will remain with her always, even though we will never be together. I know she is the one for me, meant for me but that ‘we’ can never be.

Nothing But Questions

I feel a need; a need deep inside my heart and soul. It’s something that I can’t necessarily explain off the top of my head however I know that it’s there. It’s black and it’s hollow and it’s vacuous. And it’s inside of me.

What is this? Is it something that I’ve been missing since childhood? Or is it something that has eaten me up in the past decade since I’ve been with HER? I don’t even know who I used to be before I met the BITCH. Then again, was I a man ever worth knowing back then? I really couldn’t say.

And… why can’t I remember? There are so many things that I don’t remember. Is it because I can’t remember or I’m trying hard not to remember? I wish I knew.


…Like A Phoenix From The Ashes

Ashes a mile deep, choking me on my way to the surface. My fist plunges through the mountain of burnt rubble. I struggle. I thrash about, desperate for air. Everything is blackness; I can’t see and I can’t breathe. My lungs are burning. They have felt this way for years as I’ve tried swimming my way through the dark, smoky madness. I want to reach the surface but I’m unsure as to whether the air will save me or be the nail that is driven into my coffin.

Let this unfold here. Now.